Power of Persuasion

As I've started to clean up certain aspects of my life and put things into perspective, I have this little voice that creeps into my head and tries to bring anger into whatever situation I find myself in. Angry words that try to creep out of my mouth, words that I have tried to forget, I find that I repeat myself over and over when I get angry, getting irritated at the slightest sound sometimes. I've learned to recognize this feeling through energy work and realize that it is Satan trying to get at me anyway he can. I don't think we realize the way he works. I think it is downplayed. He tempts us with food, porn, sex, spending money where we shouldn't, feeling lazy, etc. Now I am not saying that it is always him, but he has learned to seep in where he can little by little, to find where our weaknesses are, he plays on our fears, and magnifies them. I remember being extremely sick for a few years, and feeling afraid to go outside, or go to the store. A social phobia some would call it. (I personally don't believe in these cliche names like bi polar, social phobia, etc, etc. These are names pharmaceutical companies have come up with to sell their drugs, they are labels.) I find that these feelings come back every so often as a way of holding me back from progressing. He loves more than anything to hold us back. I was recently taught to recognize these feelings, when negative thoughts or emotions come into my mind to say "Satan Get Thee Hence" with all the courage I can summon. Because we are more powerful than him, in the sense that we have a body, something that he squandered. We have free agency, something I think we let him take from us from time to time, and sometimes take from ourselves. Telling him off, that he is not going to mess with our family I have found works too. There is always a way back.
Here's to now....

Forgiving

Forgiveness is something I have been working on lately, forgiving the major things of the past, and little things that seem to seep into the cracks of my soul and irritate me more than the big things that tuck themselves away in the back of your mind and hide, causing you to become physically, spiritually, and emotionally sick, leaving you wondering why you feel the way you do, 'forgetting' about what happened so long ago. Things that leave you thinking "it happened so long ago it doesn't matter anymore" but deep down it really does matter even if you don't know it does. Unforgiving-ness is like a plague that seeps into your soul. But letting go is so freeing, even if it happens a little at time, Those small sighs of freedom that your body & soul seem make, even when the tiniest bit has been let go. Body and soul seem to function as one, leaving you free to be who you really are deep inside your soul once it has all been released. But not to fret, this takes time I am learning, the body seems to release as it is ready. I am wildly anticipating the day that it all disappears, leaving me with nothing but life.
here's to now...until the next deep thought enters my mind...
Cheri